I thought I had good plans.
I am trying to use my time while sick wisely. Yesterday I had come up with a list of things I could do while sick that would be more profitable.
I am trying to use my time while sick wisely. Yesterday I had come up with a list of things I could do while sick that would be more profitable.
I had been trying to do that already,
for the past 11 weeks. I've been doing a lot of crocheting, so that
there is at least something to show for this! I've been making my
main goal my children, and fitting the rest of what I am able to do
around that main goal.
But yesterday I had the great idea of making this sick time even more profitable. I could work on my memory verses while not feeling well, if my brain was well enough to allow it. I can spend time praying for each individual in my church, even if only short, sincere sentences. I could work on my reading list, if my brain was well enough to process the words. I can keep crochetting. I can resume writing, especially the things the Lord is teaching me!
I had some time alone last night while my family was at church. (Remember, when the kids are home, they are TOP priority.) I had idea after idea of what I could spend it on fresh in my mind, and I couldn't wait to get going.
But within about 10 minutes of them leaving, the tiredness kicked in, leaving me unable to do anything but sleep. Tiredness is an unfortunate side-effect of seizure medication. It was interesting to see how quickly all of my lofty plans evaporated when stacked up against reality.
I slept, because there was nothing else to do.
This morning I also had plans. Since I have an inpatient test at the hospital starting next week, and lasting for a number of days, I must try to complete the taxes before leaving for the hospital.
Doing the taxes with a business is a complicated thing, involving a lot of numbers. (Inventory, money spent on product, and money coming in are the main three, but it takes a lot to get them all carefully in order!)
The goal this week was to be getting the taxes done, along with school, our 3 appointments, visiting with a couple of friends, trying to stay well, the normal business work-load, cleaning/laundry/meals, and getting ourselves back up to the cabin by the weekend to avoid the noise of the bar next door again.
I woke up at 4 am and felt fine.
But when I woke back up at 7 am, I felt like I was just coming out of a seizure. The left side of my body was pratically useless, and I was doing a lot of shaking. :( (WHAT?)
I found myself, again, physically unable to carry out my plans.
I thought my plans were good, God-honoring plans! But it seems the Lord had different plans.
I have been stuck (again!) in bed, recovering. I had to give up my shower. I had to depend on my family for food. I had to be still and wait to become functional again.
I also had to accept God's change of plans for me today, even though I don't understand.
I have found that the Lord has blessed, despite how sick I woke up feeling.
I was able to teach Rebecca one of the HARDEST division lessons to date for her. (I know because I've taught this lesson 3 other times before her!) She told me she loved her math today, and was begging to be allowed to finish the page! (I was making her run up and down the hallway between questions to help her stay focused, but she wanted to just plow through!)
I was also able to teach her the Y's exchanging rule, and show her how it applied to plurals, and she got every grammar question on that page right! (This is another not-so-easy concept!)
Next, Sarah came in, determined to do 10 pages of grammar. She already finished her grammer for the year, and she has begun next year's grammar! Silly girl – but, oh, so encouraging!
We have dinner in the freezer from a friend. Dan will be able to take care of today's appointment alone, and it looks like I will have time to get in a good day of school, even though my body can handle nothing more.
The taxes can get themselves done another day, maybe. Or we can file for an extension!
But yesterday I had the great idea of making this sick time even more profitable. I could work on my memory verses while not feeling well, if my brain was well enough to allow it. I can spend time praying for each individual in my church, even if only short, sincere sentences. I could work on my reading list, if my brain was well enough to process the words. I can keep crochetting. I can resume writing, especially the things the Lord is teaching me!
I had some time alone last night while my family was at church. (Remember, when the kids are home, they are TOP priority.) I had idea after idea of what I could spend it on fresh in my mind, and I couldn't wait to get going.
But within about 10 minutes of them leaving, the tiredness kicked in, leaving me unable to do anything but sleep. Tiredness is an unfortunate side-effect of seizure medication. It was interesting to see how quickly all of my lofty plans evaporated when stacked up against reality.
I slept, because there was nothing else to do.
This morning I also had plans. Since I have an inpatient test at the hospital starting next week, and lasting for a number of days, I must try to complete the taxes before leaving for the hospital.
Doing the taxes with a business is a complicated thing, involving a lot of numbers. (Inventory, money spent on product, and money coming in are the main three, but it takes a lot to get them all carefully in order!)
The goal this week was to be getting the taxes done, along with school, our 3 appointments, visiting with a couple of friends, trying to stay well, the normal business work-load, cleaning/laundry/meals, and getting ourselves back up to the cabin by the weekend to avoid the noise of the bar next door again.
I woke up at 4 am and felt fine.
But when I woke back up at 7 am, I felt like I was just coming out of a seizure. The left side of my body was pratically useless, and I was doing a lot of shaking. :( (WHAT?)
I found myself, again, physically unable to carry out my plans.
I thought my plans were good, God-honoring plans! But it seems the Lord had different plans.
I have been stuck (again!) in bed, recovering. I had to give up my shower. I had to depend on my family for food. I had to be still and wait to become functional again.
I also had to accept God's change of plans for me today, even though I don't understand.
I have found that the Lord has blessed, despite how sick I woke up feeling.
I was able to teach Rebecca one of the HARDEST division lessons to date for her. (I know because I've taught this lesson 3 other times before her!) She told me she loved her math today, and was begging to be allowed to finish the page! (I was making her run up and down the hallway between questions to help her stay focused, but she wanted to just plow through!)
I was also able to teach her the Y's exchanging rule, and show her how it applied to plurals, and she got every grammar question on that page right! (This is another not-so-easy concept!)
Next, Sarah came in, determined to do 10 pages of grammar. She already finished her grammer for the year, and she has begun next year's grammar! Silly girl – but, oh, so encouraging!
We have dinner in the freezer from a friend. Dan will be able to take care of today's appointment alone, and it looks like I will have time to get in a good day of school, even though my body can handle nothing more.
The taxes can get themselves done another day, maybe. Or we can file for an extension!
Whatever the case, I have seen God's
goodness, even when all of my (seemingly good) plans cannot come to
fruition.
"O taste and see that the Lord is good: blessed is the man tha trusteth in him." (Psalm 34:8)
"O taste and see that the Lord is good: blessed is the man tha trusteth in him." (Psalm 34:8)
