Sunday, September 9, 2012

The Pain of Divorce, and Jesus

While driving the other day, the song "Praise Him" was playing. I'm sure most of you are familiar with the words:

Praise him!
Praise him!
Praise him in the morning,
Praise him in the noon-time.
Praise him!
Praise him!
Praise him when the sun goes down.

Next comes "Love Him", then "Serve Him".

I've known this song since I was a child, and have sung it countless times. However, I never heard this last verse before getting this CD:

Jesus!
Jesus!
Jesus in the morning,
Jesus in the noon-time.
Jesus!
Jesus!
Jesus when the sun goes down.

These words to the last verse hit me. YES, it is supposed to be "Jesus" all day long! :) I like the way it puts it so simply. All of our life, our thoughts, our actions, what keeps our attention throughout the day, should be "Jesus"!

Let's fast-forward to today.

I am in the middle of a divorce. This is not fun. I don't like it. The fact that my husband decided he did not want to be married to me does not make it so I love him any less. So I am loosing my husband, and it is because of his choice. There is no comfort in this situation.

In the middle of some moments of pain and agony because of this, the Lord reminded me of something. I do not need God and something more. It is true that I'm loosing my husband. It is true that I have lost my health. I am busy. Life has not gone at all how I had planned it.

But these are the things I don't need. I need the Lord. (and nothing else)

So, if in this life, I find I loose things I love, the pain is still there. I think the pain is not even lessened or dulled, but I still have what I need. I need my Savior.

I don't need God and something else.

These may just be words on the screen for you, but God impressed this truth on my heart. I hope I have been able to convey at least some of the truth in this concept that "God is enough." It is such a comfort through all of these days of intense pain to know that I don't need more. I need him. What I am loosing (that hurts so much) is nothing compared to glory. (Romans 8:18)

Jesus!
Jesus!
Jesus in the morning,
Jesus in the noon-time.
Jesus!
Jesus!
Jesus when the sun goes down!

(And if you want to listen to it, I found it on you tube.